Life Crisis

I thought that American dream only existed in American land. But don’t be fooled like the past me, my friend, the place I am in right now is just as fierce yet magical as the one Britney Spears is living in (ya Allah referensi gue)

Living in Jakarta, nah, scratch that, living in this little cubicle called The Ministry of National Development Planning is the same as living in the galaxy of any kind of nerd you will not even think of once in your life –moreover if you are as ignorant as me lol-

People pursue their dream, literally, hardly. They are determined and convinced about their endeavour without a single doubt reflected in the eyes. They love the concept of working hard and pushing the limit. Ambition is a pride and achievement is the trophy.

Feeling intimidated already? Well..I haven’t even talk about their set of lifestyle. lol

For them, competition is an intriguing game.

Their daily lunchbreak conversation consists of ideas, world-problem-solving-alternatives, and any other damn heavy stuff. Their leasure time is filled with serious books and scheduled physical excercises.

See? The power of nerd indeed. Super nerds.

Well, enough with the sparkling background and let’s switch the attention back to the drama queen.

No, no, no, not in the middle of that crowd, more to the left, a little more, you almost there, and yep! There I am.

Sitting in the corner after a little while ago came from my far far away castle. A castle which mostly covered by cows and goats -I am not kidding tho, in Boyolali, you can literally see those livestocks everywhere. Even on the road side-

I always believe that I am an ambitious person myself, but after meeting them?

Meh. I am nothing but a worthless-lazy-old-lady

lol

My effort is nothing compared to them

My determination is just as weak as four-year-old who wants to be a pilot but easily changes into fireman two hours later

Therefore, I got hit by this culture shock quite dramatically.

Therefore, I didn’t even have time to write on this blog for months because I was busy pitying myself

Hahaha

Don’t worry tho

Because I don’t have plan on giving up.

I think this setback is actually a good start for me.